So the other night, i would say last Wensday, I had the most amazing night of my life.  Kristen came over and both of us where just in the most relaxed cool mood.  She looked more beautiful then i have ever seen her.  Absolutely stunning -- I could just close my eyes and feel not only how good she looked, but that it was going to be a good night.  There are some nights i compliment her just because i want here to feel better about herself, or just because she wants to here it. but that night... it was just so amazing.  I was still resting, because my surgery had been only two days before.  However, both of our attention were completely focused on each other.  I think she stopped the pain completely for at least a bit.  We mostly hung out at my house, but we did get to go to starbucks.  She drove me there, and it took me about 10 min. to finally get in the door, but it didn't matter.  I would never trade that night for anything.  If I had to rank it compared to something else, it would rank above the night of our first kiss.  Which is the second best night of my life.
I love you kristen and i doubt you will ever read these, but you are my everything.